Honestly, I can’t sleep if I don’t get an “I love you, babe.” or a “goodnight”. I don’t know why, but I just can’t sleep. I feel like my day isn’t complete. Same goes for morning. It just brightens my day and ends my night in a perfect way. I can’t sleep at all…
I may sound desperate, but I just want to be with him. He’s all I want right now. I miss the comfort he can give me when he’s holding me and the warmth I receive from him. I miss the security and reassurance of his kisses.
I just want him next to me….
I can’t wait for the days where we’re next to each other every day
Since 09 you’ve been my source to vent and to express feelings that I couldn’t find words for, you’ve always been there for me just as much as music has been. But I’m ending it here. Why? Cos of heartbreak, once again.
But it wasn’t any heartbreak, it’s the heartbreak that finally fully broke me. Broke me into pieces that will never be healed or fixed in any way. With every heartbreak I experience, my personality diminishes and who I am becomes who I was. I finally fell deep in love, deeper than I have ever fallen for anyone. It was an experience of a lifetime, cos I’ve never been so happy in my life. And of course with every peak there is a downfall, and right as of this moment I’m experiencing those depressing feelings I said was never going to hurt me again.
I’ve been hurt many of times, I’ve been raped, beaten, cheated on, left deserted, and have been fucked up in so many ways that I can’t comprehend how I’m still sane. And today marks the day that I hit that breaking point. That point where I finally give up on everyone and everything to start back at square 1. I’m going to fall off the face of the planet and nobody will even notice…